I need a clock with BIGGER NUMBERS! I awoke this morning and looked at the clock…I swear the thing said 5:30. So I rolled out of bed and started the coffee and my morning. I had my first cup-o in me before I noticed the computer screen said 4…NOT 5! Yep…I either need to start sleeping in my glasses or get a new clock…
Since I’ve been up an extra hour this morning, I’ve been thinking about yoga. 15 years ago, when I had what I now know to be my first “flare” of Mystery Illness, none of the Docs could help me with the cause. I spent days online doing research. I found all kinds of articles about the adverse effects of this chemical or that food…the benefits of this exercise or that physical regimen…so I said, “F#@*k it all!” and eliminated EVERYTHING from my diet and began a daily yoga practice.
I quit smoking (something I currently need to do again…SOON!), began eating a strict organic, vegetarian diet, and dropped my beloved Diet Dr. Pepper and drank only water and green tea. Sounds crazy, I know. But I think a lot of you can identify with that borderline desperation when visit after visit, the Docs come up empty!
The thing was, after a month or so, I began to feel better. Was it the diet? Was it the yoga? Who knows! After a year of living like this, I ended up going back to work waiting tables and bartending. Yep! You guessed it…little by little my lifestyle slipped back to its former bad habits…lousy diet, smoking…all of it.
Over the years, as they symptoms would pop in-in-and-out of my life, I would make a few changes, but mostly I turned back to the yoga. The gentle stretching felt great and it quieted my mind. Eventually things would get “back to normal” and I would end up sleeping in and forgetting the morning exercise routine.
So…yet again, I’ve been thinking about starting it back up. The last time, about 6 months ago, I was cut short in my practice by a broken toe. (Hey…when you have NO balance or depth perception, thing “magically” appear in you path!) I had been waiting on starting out of concern about the “neck” issue. After all, if all “this” was being caused by pinched nerves and vertebral compressions, I wasn’t sure yoga would be a safe call.
Well, yesterday the Neurosurgeon put those worries to rest! My spine is PERFECT for a woman my age. The MRI showed him a patch of arthritis and a few bone spurs. He told me to forget about my neck because there was not a thing wrong with it that would cause me any problems. (Doin’ the happy dance!) He also told me to consider looking for a new Neurologist…
I left his office with appointments with ANOTHER Neuro and a Rheumatologist. Yep…we’re back to MS and Lupus as the big contenders in the game of “What the heck is wrong with me?” *sigh*
So I want you to do me a BIG favor…HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE! I have 23 cigarettes left in my house. After that, I’M DONE! Cold turkey…PLEASE question me on my resolve…send e-mails or random comments asking me if I wimped out or am holding on…(Thanks in advance!)
As for the yoga…that one’ll take some thinking and work. After all, picture doing a downward facing dog when your hands and forearms won’t hold your weight. (Ouch!) Or try doing some of the poses that require balance when you’re needing to use a cane to keep from falling over. (Thud!) Maybe I’ll start with the seated stretching exercises…
Since they can only try to treat symptoms until they figure out the actual cause, I’d LOVE to hear what worked for you before you were diagnosed.