Kickin’ Godzilla’s ASS!

How Godzilla came to life and destroyed Tokyo…
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  “Honey, it’s not that you’re not pretty. You ARE! But you need to take some pride in your appearance. If you’d lose some weight and do something with your hair, you’d be beautiful!”
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STOMP!
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  The book was supposed to be a scathing expose about the dark world of ballet and eating disorders, not a “how to” weight loss guide. The 15 year old who saw herself as pudgy and overweight missed that fact.
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STOMP!
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  “After auditions today we’ll be talking to a few of you young ladies. If we ask you to stay over, it means we think you may have what it takes to make the squad, but we need to talk to you privately about the new weight chart.
  “The School has decided on new uniforms for next year and their coverage is far less than in years past. That means it will hide less excess. So, if you’re not willing to lose the weight required, then tell us now so we don’t waste anymore time with your audition!”
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CRASH!.

  “But they don’t have it in my size anymore! The 13 fit like a glove but 7 is the biggest size they have left.”  “Then it sounds like you need to lose some weight, doesn’t it.”
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KABOOM!
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  “Did you just go get sick?”  They were sitting in Chi-chi’s waiting on the bill. “No.”
  “I think you did. Ya know what? You’re paying for your own dinner.”
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GGGRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAWWWWWWWW!!!!!!
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  “Young lady, you’re going to sit at this table where I can see you for the next 30 minutes. THEN you will go straight to your room and no where NEAR the bathroom! You just can’t do this to yourself. It’s not healthy!”  Mom had figured out her secret and she was NOT happy about it.
  What Mom didn’t know was that her daughter kept a box of double ply trash bags under her bed for just this occasion.
Puke in a trash bag, tie it up, then slip out the basement door and add it to the rest of the trash awaiting its trip to the dump. No one ever caught on to that one.
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STOMP!
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  “It’s not that I don’t think you’re sexy, but if you could lose 20 pounds? You’d be unstoppable!”
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CHOMP!
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  “You’re an excellent dancer, but we really need to talk about those thighs, now don’t we?”
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CRASH!
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  “My GAWD girl, you’ve been dropping some weight. You’re looking FAB-U-LOUS! What kind of diet are you on?”
  “Scar-and-barf. Eat anything I want and have my finger for dessert.”
It was the Theater Crowd. No one here minded weird diets since everyone was constantly trying to drop weight to either fit in a costume or just look better in one.  “Well, keep it up because it is definitely working for you!”
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KABOOM!
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  “These little black pills? Will up your metabolism. The weight will just melt off!”
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CRASH!
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  “I will NEVER fit in THOSE pants! Especially not by tomorrow!”
  “Here. Eat these and you’ll be fine by morning. Remember, chocolaty Ex-Lax and water pills are a girl’s best friend!”
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HELP! HELP! HELP!

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  “Have you been dieting again?”
  “No.”
  “You’re not eating enough and you’re shrinking.”
  “I just want to disappear…”
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STOMP!
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  “I don’t see what the problem is. If you don’t want to be like this, just eat something.”
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  I don’t diet. I never start an exercise regimen for weight loss purposes. I don’t read weight loss books, blogs, or articles.
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  I can’t.
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  Why would anyone point a loaded gun a themselves and then put their finger on the trigger? It’s the same thing with behavior that risks sending you back to a VERY dark place. (They call them “triggers” for a darn good reason.)
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    This week is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. I had no intention of “joining” the Awareness campaign. I had every plan to ignore it while it slid past, post after post and meme after meme, until it was last month’s news.
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  Then I realized that these kinds of thoughts, this shame at having danced a Tango or two with this Monster, was exactly what this week was about eradicating.
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  An eating disorder is no different than any other mental illness. Shame and silence keep this Godzilla creature alive and terrorizing the Tokyo of your mind and body. And I’m tired of contributing to this worship of unrealistic body images in any way, shape or form. Especially contributing by silence!
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  I’ve signed up with A Healthy Place to participate in their “Stand Up!” campaign to end the Stigma surrounding all Mental Illnesses. And Eating Disorders are most definitely a part of that.
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  So, by giving my voice back to ME, the tides turn and Tokyo fights back kicking that giant lizard’s ass all the way back to the murky depths of nothingness where he belongs!
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The Jets fly overhead….


A page from our Wedding Scrapbook.
My hubby, who has been my ROCK since the day we met,
has also been a huge part of not only my recovery,
but my keeping to a path of a healthier body image.

  “Honey, I love you! I’d love you no matter how much you weighed! I know it’s hard, but we’ll get through this together. I want to be sitting in a rocking chair next to you when we’re 80, watching the grandkids play in the front yard. Just tell me what I can do to help.”
  “Just hold me, talk to me, and keep telling me you love ME!”
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The Monster Retreats…
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Reply- Thank you so much for your awesomeness XXXX!
I feel REALLY bad about this, but I can’t add your link. I spent a lot of years of my life battling an eating disorder and tend to avoid the topic of weight loss like crazy! I believe that as long as a person is healthy and happy, they should embrace their bodies and all the curves and lumps and occasional rolls.
Posting links to a weight loss blog would kinda send the wrong message.
Again, thank you for the offer, but I’ll have to pass.
All the best wishes,
Chris
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Another victory for Tokyo and the people openly rejoice in the streets!
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  If you or someone you know is living with an Eating Disorder, PLEASE seek help. It’s not a “diet,” a “lifestyle choice,” or something to be glorified in a movie. It’s a death sentence.
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You can find resources on how to get help, get healthy, and stay healthy HERE.


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